I prefer to keep my LiveJournal my fanfiction collection for now, so I thought I'd post here some thoughts that probably won;t be read, but I'm content all the while.

My dog died.

It's a simple statement and most people would probably call me silly for being so upset over a dog I barely had a year, Sadie was a lot more than just some simple dog that you can find on the street.

She was trained to deal with the elderly and handicapped. She was a companion animal. She knew before I did when I would get sick, have an exacerbation or even when I was depressed.

She was part chocolate lab and part husky, so she had one blue eye and one brown. It was also probably why she could devour whole candy bars without repercussion.

She would always be by my side when I wasn't feeling well, always at my side if I was unsteady on my feet. She's been sick for a long time I guess. She had an inoperable cancer in her colon, but when she got down here, in spite of her tumor, she howled for her treats when I asked, she walked the best she could and she would eat anything I made her. She'd play like nothing was wrong and sleep next to me.

Jen called Friday. Sadie needed her shots but instead, the doctor said he couldn't give them to her because of a ten inch tumor that had been growing for years, long before we got her.

So Saturday morning she called and I got to talk to my dog for a while and she couldn't howl for me, but Jen said she was excited to hear my voice. I got to tell her I loved her and that I was sorry I couldn't be there.

But she was my baby. Just the same with Sabrina. It's hard to lose something that you use to make yourself feel better. Pets are healing creatures. It gets hard dealing with the shots and the tests and all the appointments sometimes. they don't have to do anything but sit by you and seem to understand and care more than people sometimes.

I'd probably be crazy right now if I didn't have any pets to get me through these last seven years of hell.

After they called again and said that she had gone back, looking happy, as if she accepted and knew that it was okay, I laid here for about an hour, of course I cried, and just before I fell asleep, it felt like she was laying right beside me and it felt nice.

Anyway, I'm done. I think I'm going to go lay down for a while...

DREAM JOURNAL:
xD I'll have to post it next time. I'm too lazy.

PROGRESS:

CURRENT PROJECT: An Akuroku for Daddy, some more Byakun-centric and a new plot I got from waking up to Batman on TV. No, no, it is NOT about Batman or any fandom. No worries.

I WANT SOME VASSALORD. >.> But it's not very known. So I'm gunna does some. When I can think of a good way to do it.

Ouran, too! I started writing drabbles for the MoriHani pairing, though they're just friendly. But anyway, I've been playing Morinozuka lately, and I think I've done well in practice! I wanna do something with them, but I dunno.

I also started a KH fic. It's an idea I got from an avatar that I found on the internet. Anyway, Riku's in a gang of family thieves who really aren't thieves but are trying to prove to big brother Sephi that they can handle themselves under Kadaj's guidance. Riku tries to steal something and comes across poor Sora who's leaving the bath, without a robe since he should be alone and things evolve from there. -3- I wanna walk in on a dude like that...

CHALLENGES:

Dude... I have been looking at challenges for a lot of my writer's block solving. When I have writer's block, writing always helps it, so I go and roleplay with Greed or whoever else wants to, as long as it isn't focused around sex (everyone seems to be after that...) and I have like a long list.

Bleach: I want to do a multi-chapter fic with ByakuyaHisana, so I'm doing some deep research into what Byakuya's past was like and anything I can on Hisana, so if you know anything about her, aside from Rukia, how long they were married, or small things like that, LET ME KNOW.

Vassalord: I am soooo doing something. Maybe Cherry saving Rayflo. -3- Stubborn Cherry and a wounded Master trying to hide things from Cherry is just too cute! I luffles my Cherry.

Massive Crossover: I probably won't do anything with it aside from a very terrible summary of the plot and an excuse to write an intro for Touda and other characters that fit no where else in a role play because no one does the.

D. Gray-Man: I walked into a DGM chatplay on Neo a few days back and I walked in at the most inopportune time. They were suggesting throwing poor Kanda under a mistletoe and shoving Allen at him. xD It's not that I mind it, it's just that I don't think Allen deserves to die that way. No plots for this as of yet, but I'm working!

Crimson Spell: They took the manga down! Granted, it was a very dirty manga, but the plot was awesome and sweet! A prince is cursed trying to defend his home and goes to find the wizard of curse breaking and shortly after meeting, they have sex. -3- Okay, so there's a lot more to it, like Halvill sacrificing himself to keep the demon inside Valdrigue from devouring the poor innocent guy's soul, and Ruruka, a cute little deity in the form of a bunny whose magic power can rival even Havi's... and two other companions I don't see fit to talk about. It's for the romantic in me. Anyway, I've been trying to come up with plots for that too. -3-

Kingdom Hearts: Someone mentioned playing a character for KH, and I was like 'o.o Er...' so I asked Daddy what kind of character she thought I should start out with to practice. I've done Cloud, Sephiroth and Squall before, in FF role plays, so I was going to try something else.

So she said she'd help me, and we've been doing a bit for ourselves, Sora and Riku. I am probably the worst person to play Sora in the history of KH role playing, but Daddy likes it, so I dun mind. Her RIku's really cute though. :333

So I've been coming up with plots in my head to write. I have one started, based in the World that Never Was. Sora's lost Donald, Goofy, Riku and the King, and people he once knew are popping up there without any memories of how or why they were there and he's gotta fix it before the world collapses because of instability. -3- I get to write lots of love in there for my eyes only.

There's also a Loveless one, but I have no idea how I'll get that one to work. Actually, I have a lot of KH in my plot book. xD

Tactics: Sugino and Muu-chan are the ultimate platonic couple! He gets so jealous and mean, yet Muu-chan always comes back and luffs on him. And I swear, the translators fucking SUCK! HE DOES NOT LOOK LIKE A GIRL! Okay, maybe a little, but how the hell does anyone get Goddess out of him? Kantarou and Haruka is another one. I don't have any plots for this genre, but I will be looking for plenty of them.


Tsubasa: fangirl!Sakura (originally for a KuroFai but I want some TouyaYukito love); a kink meme -- this was great. xD I thought it was a joke at first, but lots of people answered it. Someone wanted a kurofai where they go shopping for clothing, like in Outo country (Fai had said Kurogane wouldn't choose anything else so that meant he was there) and they're trying it on, or vampy!fai and one of her suggestions was the femoral artery. xD I am so doing that one, I just have to get the words down; nothing else, if you've got some, tell meee!

s-CRY-ed: Ryuhou mpreg. xD I don't usually do these, but I love Kazuma and Ryuhou and they do make a good, dysfunctional couple. I've got something for that, but getting it started is kinda hard.

Yami no Matsuei: No one probably knows this, at least among my friends, except for Splenda, but I doubt she's even here... anyway, if you're with the manga, there were demons out to get Tsuzuki after beating one of the demon generals of Hell (that part's in the anime, Dan Green isn't necessarily right to play Tsuzuki, but he does a cute job anyway (think of a mix of Yami and Yugi of YGO, going from Yugi's innocent voice to Yami's when serious). Anyway, so he defeats him and demons are out to kill him because they want his unofficial place in the General's seat. So, in this plot the girl offered, the demon attacks stopped and Tsuzuki starts falling to the demon's nature and starts acting like he did when the General possessed his body. Evil!Tsuzuki is like... kick ass. I love him. And, Splenda introduced that series to me, I thought I'd work on a Tsuzuki/Hisoka. Maybe I'll come up with something else.

InuYasha: Sesshoumaru's an in-heat whore. xD For some reason that is so hard to do, but I love the difficulty. It's mainly keeping him in character that I find to be relatively difficult.

I've been in the mood to do something neutral with him too. Saving Rin or something, but I have yet to get it out. I think I have two plots for that. After the manga, cause I love Bakusaiga. >.> It owns even Tenseiga.

Whatever. xD I love challenges! Offer!

MANGA:

Gintama
DNAngel
Mushi-shi
Death Note
X/1999
Yami no Matsuei
Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles
Fullmetal Alchemist
Tokyo Babylon
Ouran High School Host Club
Metroid
Tactics
xxxholic
D. Gray Man

Whatever else I didn't list.

ANIME (I'm worried about dubs mainly):

Mushi-shi
Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles
X/1999
Yami no Matsuei
Ergo Proxy
Tactics
Aquarion
Tokyo Babylon
That S one that Daddy and I need to see before I forget. It's subbed, but it's a yaoi one. And Loveless. And that Haruhi one... Lots!
Ouran
D. Gray Man
Devil May Cry

Whatever I didn't list.

Yes, there are enough hours in the day when you have an mp4 player on you. I love watching episodes on that thing. Makes me look important. xD

THAT IS ALL.

YOU MAY BE EXCUSED.

.:Clubs:.